I'd be okay looking like this... I don't know if this is a common thing for others but my boyfriend is trying his best to be extremely supportive during this process. Although he was asking today when can we order a pizza? I told him not till I reach my goal weight(forgetting about my next gorge days for my next HCG protocol round)
My overall goal was to reach 165ish and then get a personal trainer and whip my butt into the best shape of my life losing the last 30-40 pounds through the help of a trainer(please dont disappear boobs or a bit of a ghetto booty!). Needless to say he seemed a tad unconvinced which Im sure thats because in the past I was always going through 2-3 weeks of going to the gym and then stopping. Or eating healthy for 2 weeks - and then falling off that wagon as well. For the past two years its been a yo-yo or "im gonna get healthy" and that crashing to the ground. As much as it hurts a little because I feel he doesn't trust my word(but I can see why) I so badly want to prove him wrong as well as everything else. Most of all I want to prove to myself I can do anything I want to with my body.
Eg. I enjoy watching UFC and cage fighting because I think its amazing how those athletes tone their bodies, practice self control and conquer. I do agree thats with pretty much any athlete but for some reason I appreciate the hard work it takes to show all those muscles that I never even thought a person had(well not really ... but whose leg muscles are as sexy and toned as George St.Pierre???Gets me everytime!). I want to achieve those muscles! I thought about breaking from the end of June till summer was over for a break but now all I want to do it keep on going!! Ive continued to lose another 2.9 pounds in the past 3 days. Like why on earth would I stop??? Honestly, theres just a skinny person dying to get out and I'd like her out ASAP!
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